Firman Maulana Personal Journal

Mimpi Ketemu Setan

Makanya saya bangun pagi buta kayak gini . Mimpinya singkat, tepat dan jelas. Efektif. Sebelum tidur, sekitar pukul 20.30 (buset kayak perawan aja tidurnya jam lapan) saya mengeset alarm di hape sekitar jam setengah dua soalnya ada siaran sepak bola Jerman lawan Brasil (Deutchland Uber Alles), dan memang saya lupa berdoa hehehe

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Bunuh Diri

Pernahkah kamu punya keinginan (sedikiiiit saja) untuk bunuh diri? Gara-gara beban yang menghimpit kamu dirasa sangat berat, atau mungkin stress karena kerjaan gak rampung-rampung. Gara-gara dihina, ditolak, disakiti atau bahkan gara-gara putus cinta (kayak saya huahahaha). Atau mungkin ngerasa hidup ini tidak lagi begitu berharga bagi kamu, atau sudah tidak punya harapan lagi, atau cuma gara-gara kamu sudah gak punya siapa-siapa lagi didunia ini.
Pernahkah?

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New Chapter of My Life

I NEED TO MOVE ON
I DON'T WANT TO STUCK HERE
BECAUSE WHAT I HAVE IS MORE THAN WHAT I CAN SAY
AND ALWAYS WISH THAT I AM WHAT I CAN IMAGINE I'LL BE

Just because life is full with coming events, maybe I 'often forgot' that because the events, I have learnt, I am learning and still. And I must say that tomorrow will always have something to learn

Just because life is such a beautiful thing, isn't it?

Lagu Berlirik Paling Gombal

Beberapa hari ini menjadi hari yang berat bagi saya. Secara fisik maupun emosional. Yup benar, gak percaya kalo saya juga bisa hancur seperti kamu, seperti semua orang? Percayalah.
Bahwa setengah dari saya sedang berusaha keras untuk melanjutkan hidup. Dan setengahnya lagi gak mau bangkit dan terus terpuruk.
Bahwa terus berpura-pura tertawa ketika sedih.

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Putus

This is it.
This is the end of our journey.
Our six years journey have been end up like this.
There's With Dina Category no more.
Shit, I just have no chance to keep it up.
She said "I don't want to hurt you anymore"
My mind said "Damn it"
Some people say "if you really love her, just set her free, if she's come back, she's yours"
I said "Bull shit, she's mine already. And I can't keep her just a minute longer"

Thats hurts de.

Maybe you will say "Cmon you can over it"
No, thats a crap. Another bullshit.
I can't over it.
After all these years you are like right hand to me.
And now its gone. There's no replacement for right hand, de
You just gave me only one choice, to deal with the other hand.
The left hand
And thats impossible for me, and I dont want to !!
For now, or tomorrow or next week, month
Maybe for a year to come.

I just realized that I won't have a hundred years with you.

God damn it.

Thats really hurts.

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this posting's category was With Dina category